So I did something I didn't think I would ever do last week.
There's a lot of different types of sexualities across many spectrums. Personally, I've never really considered myself to be anything other than gay. At least not officially. Let me explain.
Women don't particularly turn me off, they just don't turn me on. I've never been "afraid" of vagina per se, and ladyparts and boobs haven't been a boner killer for me in my life. They just don't turn me on or do anything to me that way either. However, I've always enjoyed bisexual porn. There's something about two men screwing around with each other AND a woman that's always turned me on. Hell, my partner is bisexual. He and I toss around the idea of having a threeway with a woman occasionally. The problem always seems to be finding a couple where the guy is bisexual and the woman actually wants to see that. It's a really tough combination to find in a couple!
I've posted ads to Craigslist before looking for something similar, and haven't ever gotten a response. Here's the ad I posted last week:
"GL Bicurious Guy seeking couple - m4mw - 29 (Uptown)
Here's the deal. Most of my sexual experiences have been with men. Vers top here. I'm now looking to get together with a couple so I can explore sexuality with a woman. I think it'd be pretty hot to have a man there as well to teach me how to "get it done" as it were. So you see, I'm bi curious, but probably backwards as I've never been with a woman.
Just a real, horny, mostly masculine guy looking for a good, no strings attached, fun, horny time. Want to do things with both of you. Clean and safe only here, ddf, non smoker and only a light/occasional drinker. Looking to do this now or in the future. If the ad is still up, I'm still looking.
I do have pics that I will trade with you. Your discretion as a couple will absolutely be respected. Not looking to drag this out forever in e-mails, so let's chat and if we hit it off, let's do it. Hope to hear from you."
And then something happened that never happened before. I actually got a response from a couple! It created a bit of an awkward situation because I wasn't really expecting it. Don't get me wrong, I was hoping that someone I would like would answer...I just wasn't expecting it to be that fast, and not wanting to meet that night.
On with the negotiations. The woman of the couple really likes gay male porn, both of them like bi porn, the guy was at least somewhat interested in men, and they had one specific rule: they only fuck each other. Honestly, I couldn't be more relieved to hear that. The woman was also very understanding that I would probably be nervous. At one point, her partner asked me, "You want to learn how to eat her out?" And she just told him, "Honey, he may not even like it!" That's good insight. I mean, honestly, I didn't know how I would react going into this at all. They were a great couple because they were providing precisely the kind of low-pressure situation I needed for a first time.
So I went over there and we kanoodled around among the three of us. At one point, the woman laid there and just played with herself while watching her man and me fool around with each other on the bed. He really liked his ass being played with. I was rimming him and he said, "It feels so weird with all the facial hair around there."
She yelped, "Welcome to my world!!!" It was all I could do to keep from busting up laughing.
The whole thing turned out to be pretty hot. I had a few first experiences with a woman. I fingered her. I didn't eat her out directly...but I definitely pleasured them both while he fucked her just an inch or so in front of my face. In the end, everybody got off. And at 29 years old, I got a new cherry popped after all.
Okay, now please exhale, and stop panicing. This one hetero (or semi hetero) experience has not made me straight.
I've always maintained that straight men can screw around with a guy and still be straight. Now that I've lived a similar experience, I'm even more resolute in that belief. :)