Transition

I spent some time as a sub this weekend.  Back to Detroit, to visit my stud of a master, YngMstrDetroit.  I haven't spent a lot of time as sub lately - I've been really busy with work and other projects, and when I have gotten to play, I've been doming lately.  A lot.  I think I've only really subbed once since MAL in January, and that was for a short scene at IML in May.  I didn't realize how long it's been until I got here.

It took me a few minutes to get acclimated with what it means to be a sub all over again.  It felt weird at first, to be restrained without any choice as to how or why.  Whoa.  Those are some words I never thought I would type.  It only lasted a few minutes...but still.  I think I felt the transition from person to submissive, in slow motion.  I feel completely different as a boy than I do as my usual self.  It's a different mindset, from the words I choose to the actions I take.  

YngMstrDetroit is actually two Masters; there's Master A and Master R.  Master R loves anal play, something that never interested me fully.  I remember being 18 and seeing porn of a naked guy in a sling getting his ass stuffed with enormous toys, fists, etc.  Anything he can really fit in there.  I remember thinking to myself, "That will never, ever, EVER be me."

That's the thing about being a sub.  You don't get to choose whether that will be you or not.  Master R got to make that decision for me.

After I spent some time cleaning, he put me in a leather straightjacket, a rubber gas mask, and then put me in a sling.  I spent the next three hours there getting things shoved up my ass I never thought would be put there.  Ever.  The thing that surprised me is that in the building moments leading up to the scene, I was looking forward to it.  Kind of reminds me of when Master A flogged me.  Why, why am I doing this?

I got a plug in my ass larger than anything that had ever been there before.  Well, that is, Master R got a plug in my ass that big, not me....

I was screaming at the top of my lungs and it hurt, but not really.  It kinda hurt.  But it felt good.  I loved every second of the whole scene, much to my own surprise.  What was I afraid of for all of these years?  Was I really not turned on by the idea of that scene?  Did I really never want that to be me?

Or was I just afraid to unleash the true fox inside me?

This is a boy in transition.  Gotta run now, Master A wants a foot rub before we go to the airport.

~Tynan

Comments

[Zeus]

*smiles*

[C]

Worth every minute ;-) Happy you had fun! Good to hear you unleashed that... Anal lover of yourself ;-)

Best,

C

[Puma outlet]

Love these other names! And alternative mix-in options! I have only ever heard it called Skippy and boy do we make it by the bucketful at all my Virginia college parties!!